Thank you... this is just the first time in my life that I'm doing everything in advance to take care of how things are going to go on in the future and it's not working. It's not like I'll be homeless or penniless if I don't find a job from September on, or that I don't have options that will tide me over even if it's not exactly what I want to do, but I feel like if people aren't even going to give me a chance to prove myself, what else can I do?