Fandom at its finest

[mangacat201]

I'm not new to fandom, I've read and written fanfiction for more than a decade now, but strangely enough I was never really a FAN until a few years ago when I discovered Supernatural and the incredible community that is attached to that notorious name. Now I'm truly a part of fandom in many ways, found friends, brought them with me, found acceptance and knowledge and kindness and the realization that it's not restricted to a certain type of person, but it can shape your character a lot. This Ode To Fandom is not only very spot on, but it also hits me very deeply at this moment when I'm about to break down my physical life to a couple of suitcases and an empty room, setting out to a great adventure, but leaving family and friends behind. It gives me strength to know that no matter where I end up, and how, all I need is a wireless signal and you people are not going to be anywhere but here. So, read this and find yourself in it. I did.


Originally created by hesychasm , found via darkestnight01 and blondie_lottie .

Fandom is focus. Fandom is obsession. Fandom is insatiable consumption. Fandom is sitting for hours in front of a TV screen a movie screen a computer screen with a comic book a novel on your lap. Fandom is eyestrain and carpal tunnel syndrome and not enough exercise and staying up way, way past your bedtime.

Fandom is people you don't tell your mother you're meeting. Fandom is people in the closet, people out and proud, people in costumes, people in T-shirts with slogans only fifty others would understand. Fandom is a loud dinner conversation scaring the waiter and every table nearby.

Fandom is you in Germany and me in the US and him in Australia and her in Japan. Fandom is a sofabed in New York, a roadtrip to Oxnard, a friend behind a face in London. Fandom talks past timezones and accents and backgrounds. Fandom is conversation. Communication. Contact.

Fandom is drama. Fandom is melodrama. Fandom is high school. Fandom is Snacky's law and Godwin's law and Murphy's law. Fandom is smarter than you. Fandom is stupider than you. Fandom is five arguments over and over and over again. Fandom is the first time you've ever had them.

Fandom is female. Fandom is male. Fandom lets female play at being male. Fandom bends gender, straight, gay, prude, promiscuous. Fandom is fantasy. Fandom doesn't care about norms or taboos or boundaries. Fandom cares too much about norms and taboos and boundaries.

Fandom is not real life. Fandom is closer than real life. Fandom knows what you're really like in the bedroom. Fandom is how you would never, could never be in the bedroom.

Fandom is shipping, never shipping, het, slash, gen, none of the above, more than the above. Fandom is love for characters you didn't create. Fandom is recreating the characters you didn't create. Fandom is appropriation, subversion, dissension. Fandom is adoration, extrapolation, imitation. Fandom is dissection, criticism, interpretation. Fandom is changing, experimenting, attempting.

Fandom is creating. Fandom is drawing, painting, vidding: nine seasons in four minutes of love. Fandom is words, language, authoring. Fandom is essays, stories, betas, parodies, filks, zines, usenet posts, blog posts, message board posts, emails, chats, petitions, wank, concrit, feedback, recs. Fandom is writing for the first time since you were twelve. Fandom is finally calling yourself a writer.

Fandom is signal and response. Fandom is a stranger moving you to tears, anger, laughter. Fandom is you moving a stranger to speak.

Fandom is distraction. Fandom is endangering your job, your grades, your relationships, your bank account. Fandom gets no work done. Fandom is too much work. Fandom was/is just a phase. Fandom could never be just a phase. Fandom is where you found a friend, a sister, a kindred spirit. Fandom is where you found a talent, a love, a reason.

Fandom is where you found yourself.

Comments

[etoile444.livejournal.com]

Great essay. Fandom got me writing, and that has made a significant impact on how I teach writing to my students and work with them as writers. And I love to meet new ppl online its faster and more plentiful than my old penpaling of my childhood.

[mangacat201.livejournal.com]

Yes, there goes to show another way how fandom affects the 'real world' - especially the humanities - without people even knowing that it does. And yes, people online organize so much easier, it's got its very own social dynamics.

[hunters-retreat.livejournal.com]

God, yes to this! *hugs* Fandom helped me let little bits of myself out until I was actually strong enough to let them out completely in real life!